NOTE: This post is not in a sense to patch-up. It is from the good heart of a son who has a second birth from a loving and caring mom. Who brought him from the darkness and showed him to fight his life again.
Last ten days, were the toughtest in my life. Last Sunday is the toughest day of my life with no sleep, no food except coffee and smoke. I'm devasted cut his veins open to see his blood, fainted. Again woke up monday morning..big day in office. Awards for excellent performance from Sundar (VP Sales). he looked dejected...eye balls socked deep into. It was tough...said to his manager about his future plans and asked his support. He wanted to be aggressive....professionally wanted to achieve big.
I came from the darkest life...thanks to her. God sent her like an angel ( I called her many names and hurt her in the worst possible way...i did before also. As she said i was bersek...things just blew out of proportion. I was hurt i had sucidial thougths...because i hated myself more than anyone else). God sent her for a purpose in my life. She did that and time has come for her to move on. For me, i have to take the positives out of the relationship with her. Care, affection, warmth and above all everything love. If your girlfriend is your best friend and your best enemy. You will never need anyone else in your life. She will be the best wife in the world also.....
{ If i had been the same old raghav...i would had happily boozed, throw cash to a c-girl...lay down and forget everything like a bad dream. Instead..as she said he wanted to become great in life and be responsible. Came to vizag to be with his grand-mom's so called last days. It was tough seeing her...Skin peeling off, unable to even sit, swollen body parts..she is fading and every soon.}
I met a guy in the train. IIT mumbai...Adobe senior architect. He came from drug-abuse, alcholsim, womainism, dumping of gfs. I saw some glow of happiness..coolness...calmness...NO WORRIES..whatso ever attitiude in him. He is from ISKON. I understood the importance of living and helping others to live a better life even your enemies. At times they need your hand, i lost so much money bcoz of one person. Today he mailed me asking 500/- for food out of self-respect. Which i did transfer. After which, i understood one every important one thing in life. You can be happy in your life..if you forgive your enemy. You will be at peace. I was more than happy as if all my financial problems are solved today. A change in my attitude.
To err is human...To forgive is divine. It takes a noble heart to ask forgiveness, to forgive who should be a great person.
From monday, i laughed at times...thinking of some the past times...it was funny with her. I had the best time of my life with her. I hurt her by calling very very big names....but now i'm more hurt than her for doing so. I have gone mad in one simple word. So in telugu.." Anitiki kalipi oka pedha SORRY
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No one to comment. So i'm writing comments for myself. Hmmmm....Lonely life...Just like Brooks Halden had in shwashank redemption.....Hope it won't end like.. BROOKS WAS HERE on the wall.
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ReplyDeleteHmm...enti baby philosophy aa. Good ...so you want to join ISKON. Join there become more disciplined in life. But don't become a Nanga Baba..lol :):):):). Love you kaddhu
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