500 Days of Summer

I want to watch this movie badly...it means a lot. The story of a boy who meets a gal...

http://www.novamov.com/video/4bb7c9056184d

Going Back to Buisness.........

Going to B'lore on Aug 24th, tomo should book tickets in tatkal. Been three weeks, go lot of BI/OGG/EXADATA work to do and also GMAT/CABM. I'm sick and tried of everything baby.

I'm sick and tried of  my addictions
I'm sick and tried of just planning woith no exceution
I'm sick and tried of being a loser
I'm sick and tried of  watching dirty stuff over the net
I'm sick and tried of losing money
I'm sick and tried of being alone
I'm sick and tried of wasting productive time in my life
I'm sick and tried of reading others success stories
I'm sick and tried of inspiring myself time n again
I'm sick and tried of  my life.........

What should i do baby? I just want to get back to work and change my attitude once for all. I have to prove something for myself. I should go to ISB in this year or the next. By 30...i should be a muti-national business consultant in Mckinsey.

Long long way to go...I know which door to open but i should patiently face the obstacles and never lose my focus and achieve it one day.

Door 1: GMAT 750+
Door 2: CABM
Door 3: CBM
Door 4: Application Process/ Admission Essays
Door 5: Interview
Door 6: Admission to ISB
Door 7: Cracking each term in ISB..Total 8 terms
Door 8: Get scholar of excellence or atleast Dean's list of top 15 students.
Door 9: Get selected for Mckinsey Campus Interview.
Door 10: Join Mckinsey as Associate Consultant with Mutli-lingustics (Spanish/Chiense/French)
Door 11: Work in Europe and China...

I just write things but i need to put everythign into practice now. I have no other choice....My angel...My family are there with me. They will inspire me to achieve big....I have to do for them...Atleast my angel will be happy. One day, Your kaddu will be in news...people will speak about his glory.

Obituary

My Grand Mom passed away on August 12th 2:20 AM. She died in my hands and my sister's. She talked till the last moment. We follow the Shiva Matha...a different custom unlike the Vaishnava's. Her body has to be kept in a proper padmaashnam. Carried in a beautiful chariot to the burial ground and even buried in that position with a long puja in process. We couldn't belive she passed away. Till the moment when we carried her last bath and other custom processes. We all four cried like never before together. Two days back on August 10th when she is seriously ill.She kissed me three times and said don't pick any fights with anyone...help everyone like your grandfather did...take care of the family. Even though she is not my actual blood related grand mom, we never treated her like that. She cared a lot about me, cried for me, fed me with her own hands. I listenend to some great stories from her. Always cried when i came home and left home during college days and after.

August 14th, Saturday 3rd day..again we have to prepare everything she likes...veg & non-veg, sweets even tobacco. Yes she used to smoke once, but she quit after an eye-operation. Even i asked she during her last days if she wants a final taste. But she refused politely saying she quit that addiction long time back. Every day i sleep in the same place she used to sleep now. I feel her presence every moment. I applied for bevearement leave for 10 days and have to stay till 22nd Aug for the 11th day ceremony where around 400 people will be present. Suddenly i felt i lost someone i knew from the time i was born on this earth.

As i said to my angel, even my own mom never fed me with her own hands. It was always my grand mom, she used to bring me from school...sit in a park and play with her and tell stories and fed me with her hands. After her, it was my angel....who did that to me, wheni was busy attending a call with vasu, she did fed me with her own hands...that moment i have seen my grand mom in her. She even gave bath to me liek my grand mom. But God, know took both of them far far from me. I miss them...I miss them...I miss them.

Let my grand mom's soul rest in peace.....Atleast my angel's be with me forever.

Ciao
raghav

HAPPY B'DAY MY ANGEL

Many Many Happy Returns of the Day. God bless you....I even thought of going to the same temple dad went when your fmaily met with an accident for puja. But i don't know, things are not so well at home. Granny may pass away any momment. Yes, she is struggling every single second. But, i prayed to God to give you all the required strength and be with you and make you happy whereever you are.

I'm not showing off anything, i don't have anything. I lost a lot of money, friends, love....For whom i should show off will it fetch anything for me. People ask me to forget everything and move on...As days pass by things like this have to be forgotten...But to forget is that a memory..No it is my life.

I wanted to send her wishes personally talk to her. But i'm not authorized to do anything. I shed my tears midnight...sent prayers to God to bless her and make her life beautiful. Make her every dream coem true...Let her be happy iwth the guy of her image...(MAN).

Some past memory...

Of all my b'days ...I have great boozing parties in mumbai...went to a dance bar. Had b'day bumps...late night parties with friends. Had a b'day cake after a long long time in family few years back. But, it was my 26th b'day which will remain truly the most beautiful and teh best b'day of my life. My angel...spent the complete 24 hrs with me. Hmmm...i was fat to share the sleeping berth with her. Poor girl adjusted so much for me. I felt like a new born baby sleeping in her arms. That was the most beautiful cake i had with her...we ate together.The best b'day song she sang for me...as usual a nightangle's voice she got. I miss my angel and those moments. I don't want to celebrate my b'day anymore...instead spend that money for a new dress...throwing a party t friends. To some chartiy or old age home...on her name....Atleast God will forgive me for my mistakes.

As per mistakes, i will pay for them in this life or the next. My dreams, my aspirations of going to a top b-school and become a multi-naional business consultant (MNBC)  is something i'm not asking more.

1) My Angel, 2) My God,  3) My Family are always with me...They will take care of me when i'm down and hurt. They will inpsire me to reach such great heights in my life.

Let God bless her again...Make her 26th year the most memorable in her life.

"Angels from the East, Angels from the west, Angels from the north, Angels from the south...Be with her and make her strong. Protect her. Bless her on this memorable day"

Granny's Age...More than 100 years...

Ohhh.....had a lot of vistors at home seeing my very aging granny. Her eldest daugther came to see her the other day, she is 78 years old. My granny came to this house after my dad was a 3-month old baby, who lost his mom. But that time, his eldest sister is 15 yrs old. So...i suppose she is 30 years old by the time she came her. She already had a daugther from her first marriage...Now even she passed away. So approximately she is 105-110 years. My grand father passed away in 1988...he is 85 years old. People say they both are of teh same age....second marriage for both of them. But every one in the family loved her like own mother, grandmother. everyone in my family are linked ...expect my mom who came from a far distance from west godavari...But everyone liked her. People today say that she is doing a great job taking care of my 100+ year old granny.hmmm....she took care of her more than her own mom.

May be someone blessed her to live 100 years....She even completed that now...She lived a century. Great to live a life like that....I will for sure miss her...her affection.

After her, there was God's sent angel who fed me on her hands. I wish she will live 100 + years....God bless that angel. Never forget ppl like them who gave their heart out for you...God forgive me for my mistakes.

Bless my granny and Bless the angel...long live angel !!!!....You're the best.

IS THIS TRUE ??? I'M PERPLEXED

A poem...from the heart

I was a fish in the ocean and I crossed the shores for you
I struggled in the land and returned back to my ocean
One day i smiled,other day felt frustrated
I buried you without killing Will you forgive me?

You are like a light in distance and draw me towards you
What do i do with the heart that melts at the thought of you
I struggled to walk;I became a rain made out of thread
I became an artist because of you;

I'm a wave in the running water; You are the moist within me
I missed the boon that i got will you forgive me love
I am like the paperwhich floats in air;You made me into a letter
To start and end with love like a lighthouse

One who doesn't love is not possessive but
One who loves would be willing to part their bones;
Why did you come into my life my dear ;
Will you disappear like a mirage?


Night is the time when everyone sleeps;
But I wet the pillows with tears in nights
Affection cannot be confined;
Uncontrollable tears will roll down

I thought i lost life and i found it back in you ?

Toy Story 4...Episode 1

Andy is a 5 year old kid who loves playing with toys. His parents brought some lovely toys for him on his 5th birthday. This story is about the toy family.



Characters:-

Jack – Cowboy toy just like in Client Eastwood movies.

Jessie – A fairly tale Mexican girl. Innocent, cute charming. Very simple and beautiful. Pure gal from the heart. Best friend of jack.

Pamela – A barbie girl. Sexy and intelligent. Any guy would fall for her looks and talks.

Bucephalus -- Jack's Horse. Raised by Jessie,taken care like her own brother.

Tommy -- A space buzz lighter. Very sophisticated and highly studious. Innovative.Well built..technically speaking ...He is a MAN.

Inresponse to Haaahhahaha Love so immature never seen

A small analogy at this time of hour. Couldn't sleep...so want to post it.

Love so immature never seen...Hahahahahah. She gave me everything in this second life. God sent her into my life. To make me a human being again. I was once again the normal person..honest..sincere...dedicated to work and career. Mostly importantly, i was close to my family again. I lost many friends and some most important people bcoz of money. Yes i lied with them for money...i was riding a tiger..not knowing how to get down. For which, today i'm suffering with almost no good friends. Only one good friend...my only girl friend in life...also left me alone to my fate. I hurt her in into the worst possible way. May be i deserve this punishment for life.

She played different roles in my life...As a good friend mentor...to show my worth and become great. As a wonderful girl friend...giving all the love and support,showing me all the places in the captial of god's own country.As a wife...doing all the household things for me. feeding me when i'm busy at work. As a mother, who cares for his son....bathing him. Asking him to quit his addictions for her and be a great person. Hmmm....will there be another SHE who will care and give love and affection to me like her. Don't know...I don't even want to think...I just want to live in those moments every night like a sweet dream and wake up for a fresh morning. I can never forget her in my life. Your right...My soul of inpiration for the rest of my life whereever she is....she should be happy.

In return, i didn't do anything for her. Except calling names ...losing my patience....troubling her and her family a lot. What kind a person am I? My angel's love is not immature...She is cute and innocent...at times swaying moods...But she is my angel...lucky charm...most importantly my second mom.

A beautiful song for her...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljL116_DKC8

She: gunde okkatunte chalu gonthu thaane padagaladu (If you have the heart, the throat sings for itself)

maatalanni dhachukunte paata neevu rayagalavu (If you savour your words, you can write the song)
He: raatha raani vaadi raatha devudemi rasado (Wonder what life God wrote for a person who cannot write)- my favorite line
chetanaite marchi chudu veedu maripotadu.. manishautadu (If possible change him and see, he will become a human)

CHANGE ME INTO A GOOD HUMAN...WILL YOU????

A touching scene

One who saves one man, saves the entire world. He cried bcoz he could save one more person...why he kept the car, rings, gold...which could have saved one more. Yes in his past life, he was alcoholic..womanizer...greedy to make money out of the war circumstances. In the end, he died penniless...but his soul is the happiest of all...for saving 1100 Jews...called today the Schindler's Jews...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wObpzdaqz4Y&feature=related

Responsibilty

Today Morning, i watched my grand mom...struggling to excreate...my mom has to pull the fecus out. It was a tough thing to watch and listen when she was saying. But she has to do...as a responsible daugther-in-law of the home.

When we are kids, they do the same thing to us. Diapepers changing, cleaning...take caring of ourselves than their own life. Sacrifices and everything...adove all affection and love and care. Why they have to do it is their responsiblity. Now, it is our turn to do the same.

Life is a cycle....They give birth...feed milk...food...education...career...marriage. Again...we should do the same to them...care....get them married again (60 yrs marriage), food...when they are weak...clean them like babies...see to their end of the days happily....death. Life is nothing but the events between birth and death.

Responsibilty...is something it has to come from you. One should never ask you to take care of your parents, sibblings, family members, friends. It should come whole heartedly...one should feel they are a part of your family and close to your heart.

I have seen so much in the last month or so. Constant quarrels for some amount of love, misunderstandings...till the break even point...sucidial thoughts.But now i'm relaxed...Patience is a must for everything. In shawshank redemption, Andy defrense...waited for 18 yrs to dig the tunnel. Geology is the study of pressure and time. That's all it takes. Pressure and Time.

Hope is a good thing only the best of things. No good things ever dies. I will be hoping this blog will finds you, and finds you well.Your best buddy rags...

Forgiveness

Forgiving Dr. Mengle...The power of forgiveness....

You've Got A Friend in me

FATE N DESTINY

Hmmm.... In a way it was good....not to be good together for life. May be it was wrong in flames...it should have been F than M. Even God doesn't want us to get married in this life. Thats why we have to break up and fight so much till the break-even point.

May in next life, i will take birth as a girl and become like katrina kaif for my sweet cute kadhu, hippo, baby elephant i hope he will be twice as fat by then. Vinayakudu.....

For this life...as good friend...soulmate...wishing all the success and happiness in her life. Wherever she is, she should be happy.Make her dreams come true.

Last friday, I donated some 20K from my bonus in office. " SPONSOR A CHILD", on her name. So every year i will donate something on her name and help their education. I want to give back something to the society. Help the need...bring a smile to their life. I hope she will be happy atleast...if she can't forgive me for hurting her. Every second i felt bad...may be fate in this life.

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY TOO!!!

NOTE: This post is not in a sense to patch-up. It is from the good heart of a son who has a second birth from a loving and caring mom. Who brought him from the darkness and showed him to fight his life again.

Last ten days, were the toughtest in my life. Last Sunday is the toughest day of my life with no sleep, no food except coffee and smoke. I'm devasted cut his veins open to see his blood, fainted. Again woke up monday morning..big day in office. Awards for excellent performance from Sundar (VP Sales). he looked dejected...eye balls socked deep into. It was tough...said to his manager about his future plans and asked his support. He wanted to be aggressive....professionally wanted to achieve big.

I came from the darkest life...thanks to her. God sent her like an angel ( I called her many names and hurt her in the worst possible way...i did before also. As she said i was bersek...things just blew out of proportion. I was hurt i had sucidial thougths...because i hated myself more than anyone else). God sent her for a purpose in my life. She did that and time has come for her to move on. For me, i have to take the positives out of the relationship with her. Care, affection, warmth and above all everything love. If your girlfriend is your best friend and your best enemy. You will never need anyone else in your life. She will be the best wife in the world also.....

{ If i had been the same old raghav...i would had happily boozed, throw cash to a c-girl...lay down and forget everything like a bad dream. Instead..as she said he wanted to become great in life and be responsible. Came to vizag to be with his grand-mom's so called last days. It was tough seeing her...Skin peeling off, unable to even sit, swollen body parts..she is fading and every soon.}

I met a guy in the train. IIT mumbai...Adobe senior architect. He came from drug-abuse, alcholsim, womainism, dumping of gfs. I saw some glow of happiness..coolness...calmness...NO WORRIES..whatso ever attitiude in him. He is from ISKON. I understood the importance of living and helping others to live a better life even your enemies. At times they need your hand, i lost so much money bcoz of one person. Today he mailed me asking 500/- for food out of self-respect. Which i did transfer. After which, i understood one every important one thing in life. You can be happy in your life..if you forgive your enemy. You will be at peace. I was more than happy as if all my financial problems are solved today. A change in my attitude.

To err is human...To forgive is divine. It takes a noble heart to ask forgiveness, to forgive who should be a great person.

From monday, i laughed at times...thinking of some the past times...it was funny with her. I had the best time of my life with her. I hurt her by calling very very big names....but now i'm more hurt than her for doing so. I have gone mad in one simple word. So in telugu.." Anitiki kalipi oka pedha SORRY

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