500 Days of Summer

I want to watch this movie badly...it means a lot. The story of a boy who meets a gal...

http://www.novamov.com/video/4bb7c9056184d

Going Back to Buisness.........

Going to B'lore on Aug 24th, tomo should book tickets in tatkal. Been three weeks, go lot of BI/OGG/EXADATA work to do and also GMAT/CABM. I'm sick and tried of everything baby.

I'm sick and tried of  my addictions
I'm sick and tried of just planning woith no exceution
I'm sick and tried of being a loser
I'm sick and tried of  watching dirty stuff over the net
I'm sick and tried of losing money
I'm sick and tried of being alone
I'm sick and tried of wasting productive time in my life
I'm sick and tried of reading others success stories
I'm sick and tried of inspiring myself time n again
I'm sick and tried of  my life.........

What should i do baby? I just want to get back to work and change my attitude once for all. I have to prove something for myself. I should go to ISB in this year or the next. By 30...i should be a muti-national business consultant in Mckinsey.

Long long way to go...I know which door to open but i should patiently face the obstacles and never lose my focus and achieve it one day.

Door 1: GMAT 750+
Door 2: CABM
Door 3: CBM
Door 4: Application Process/ Admission Essays
Door 5: Interview
Door 6: Admission to ISB
Door 7: Cracking each term in ISB..Total 8 terms
Door 8: Get scholar of excellence or atleast Dean's list of top 15 students.
Door 9: Get selected for Mckinsey Campus Interview.
Door 10: Join Mckinsey as Associate Consultant with Mutli-lingustics (Spanish/Chiense/French)
Door 11: Work in Europe and China...

I just write things but i need to put everythign into practice now. I have no other choice....My angel...My family are there with me. They will inspire me to achieve big....I have to do for them...Atleast my angel will be happy. One day, Your kaddu will be in news...people will speak about his glory.

Obituary

My Grand Mom passed away on August 12th 2:20 AM. She died in my hands and my sister's. She talked till the last moment. We follow the Shiva Matha...a different custom unlike the Vaishnava's. Her body has to be kept in a proper padmaashnam. Carried in a beautiful chariot to the burial ground and even buried in that position with a long puja in process. We couldn't belive she passed away. Till the moment when we carried her last bath and other custom processes. We all four cried like never before together. Two days back on August 10th when she is seriously ill.She kissed me three times and said don't pick any fights with anyone...help everyone like your grandfather did...take care of the family. Even though she is not my actual blood related grand mom, we never treated her like that. She cared a lot about me, cried for me, fed me with her own hands. I listenend to some great stories from her. Always cried when i came home and left home during college days and after.

August 14th, Saturday 3rd day..again we have to prepare everything she likes...veg & non-veg, sweets even tobacco. Yes she used to smoke once, but she quit after an eye-operation. Even i asked she during her last days if she wants a final taste. But she refused politely saying she quit that addiction long time back. Every day i sleep in the same place she used to sleep now. I feel her presence every moment. I applied for bevearement leave for 10 days and have to stay till 22nd Aug for the 11th day ceremony where around 400 people will be present. Suddenly i felt i lost someone i knew from the time i was born on this earth.

As i said to my angel, even my own mom never fed me with her own hands. It was always my grand mom, she used to bring me from school...sit in a park and play with her and tell stories and fed me with her hands. After her, it was my angel....who did that to me, wheni was busy attending a call with vasu, she did fed me with her own hands...that moment i have seen my grand mom in her. She even gave bath to me liek my grand mom. But God, know took both of them far far from me. I miss them...I miss them...I miss them.

Let my grand mom's soul rest in peace.....Atleast my angel's be with me forever.

Ciao
raghav

HAPPY B'DAY MY ANGEL

Many Many Happy Returns of the Day. God bless you....I even thought of going to the same temple dad went when your fmaily met with an accident for puja. But i don't know, things are not so well at home. Granny may pass away any momment. Yes, she is struggling every single second. But, i prayed to God to give you all the required strength and be with you and make you happy whereever you are.

I'm not showing off anything, i don't have anything. I lost a lot of money, friends, love....For whom i should show off will it fetch anything for me. People ask me to forget everything and move on...As days pass by things like this have to be forgotten...But to forget is that a memory..No it is my life.

I wanted to send her wishes personally talk to her. But i'm not authorized to do anything. I shed my tears midnight...sent prayers to God to bless her and make her life beautiful. Make her every dream coem true...Let her be happy iwth the guy of her image...(MAN).

Some past memory...

Of all my b'days ...I have great boozing parties in mumbai...went to a dance bar. Had b'day bumps...late night parties with friends. Had a b'day cake after a long long time in family few years back. But, it was my 26th b'day which will remain truly the most beautiful and teh best b'day of my life. My angel...spent the complete 24 hrs with me. Hmmm...i was fat to share the sleeping berth with her. Poor girl adjusted so much for me. I felt like a new born baby sleeping in her arms. That was the most beautiful cake i had with her...we ate together.The best b'day song she sang for me...as usual a nightangle's voice she got. I miss my angel and those moments. I don't want to celebrate my b'day anymore...instead spend that money for a new dress...throwing a party t friends. To some chartiy or old age home...on her name....Atleast God will forgive me for my mistakes.

As per mistakes, i will pay for them in this life or the next. My dreams, my aspirations of going to a top b-school and become a multi-naional business consultant (MNBC)  is something i'm not asking more.

1) My Angel, 2) My God,  3) My Family are always with me...They will take care of me when i'm down and hurt. They will inpsire me to reach such great heights in my life.

Let God bless her again...Make her 26th year the most memorable in her life.

"Angels from the East, Angels from the west, Angels from the north, Angels from the south...Be with her and make her strong. Protect her. Bless her on this memorable day"

Granny's Age...More than 100 years...

Ohhh.....had a lot of vistors at home seeing my very aging granny. Her eldest daugther came to see her the other day, she is 78 years old. My granny came to this house after my dad was a 3-month old baby, who lost his mom. But that time, his eldest sister is 15 yrs old. So...i suppose she is 30 years old by the time she came her. She already had a daugther from her first marriage...Now even she passed away. So approximately she is 105-110 years. My grand father passed away in 1988...he is 85 years old. People say they both are of teh same age....second marriage for both of them. But every one in the family loved her like own mother, grandmother. everyone in my family are linked ...expect my mom who came from a far distance from west godavari...But everyone liked her. People today say that she is doing a great job taking care of my 100+ year old granny.hmmm....she took care of her more than her own mom.

May be someone blessed her to live 100 years....She even completed that now...She lived a century. Great to live a life like that....I will for sure miss her...her affection.

After her, there was God's sent angel who fed me on her hands. I wish she will live 100 + years....God bless that angel. Never forget ppl like them who gave their heart out for you...God forgive me for my mistakes.

Bless my granny and Bless the angel...long live angel !!!!....You're the best.

IS THIS TRUE ??? I'M PERPLEXED

A poem...from the heart

I was a fish in the ocean and I crossed the shores for you
I struggled in the land and returned back to my ocean
One day i smiled,other day felt frustrated
I buried you without killing Will you forgive me?

You are like a light in distance and draw me towards you
What do i do with the heart that melts at the thought of you
I struggled to walk;I became a rain made out of thread
I became an artist because of you;

I'm a wave in the running water; You are the moist within me
I missed the boon that i got will you forgive me love
I am like the paperwhich floats in air;You made me into a letter
To start and end with love like a lighthouse

One who doesn't love is not possessive but
One who loves would be willing to part their bones;
Why did you come into my life my dear ;
Will you disappear like a mirage?


Night is the time when everyone sleeps;
But I wet the pillows with tears in nights
Affection cannot be confined;
Uncontrollable tears will roll down

I thought i lost life and i found it back in you ?